Many of my past posts have been centered around my time at massage therapy school, and with good cause. That is kind of the purpose here. But recently, the other part of the blog has started to rise it's head and I can't ignore it much longer. That's right folks... my life is getting in my own way.
That is not to be taken in a bad way. It's actually a really good thing. Some people will agree with me that there is nothing worse in life than to be bored. We could say it is it's own private ring of hell, because it is very hard to get out of that cycle. This time last year, I was very bored. I was just moving along, doing the same thing I had been doing for a long, with nothing really surprising me anymore. I do not like to be bored. Now, usually just a little change is enough to knock the pandulum off. That's the way to do it... brick by brick my friend, brick by brick.
Right now, all I can think of is a cartoon character where the ton of bricks falls on them. Luckily, as we all know, that cartoon character always manages to pull out their little "ouch!" sign and walk away to return again. I am midway out of those bricks. My "ouch" sign is being left behind.
I quite literally had a few "ouch" sign moments in the past 2 months. My dear husband and I have been looking to purchase a house for a while and we finally started seriously looking around in November. There are few stresses I can think of that would rival first time home buyers trying to find one, especially because this house would be the house we would live in for (hopefully) 10+ years. It would be the house we would raise our children in; we would put our life savings into. So yeah... a bit of a challenge. Anyone who says it doesn't put a strain on their minds, their relationship with the significant other, and on their bank account is a straight up lier.
The second biggest purchase I have made thus far in my life is my car. I got into a car accident on the morning of New Year's Eve. Not the best way to finish up a year. I managed to walk away without a scratch. My car was another matter; my poor Matrix was ruined, destined for the scrap yard. So began another purchase hunt, and this one was on the fast track. Just remembering the pain of 8 dealerships in 4 hours... my "ouch" sign made several appearances. 2 weeks and several miles later, I bought my new car, a 2007 Mazda CX-7... my Little Red. Until my next huge change in life, she will be my baby.
And finally, the biggest 180 change of the last year, besides my journey thru massage. Once upon a time, I dabbled in art, not in any sort of way seriously. The year after college, I managed to stick a few of my pieces into an art show in NYC. I sold 2 prints and felt on top of the world. Then nothing. So I figured, okay, leave the art work behind, move forward. And I did for 2 years... until I received a phone call in December. The man who organized the art show called from Berlin, Germany. He wanted me to do another art show... in Germany! So I sent him some pictures of my art work from the show and waited. And waited, creating a bit of artwork here and there, and waited a bit longer. And then, the phone call. After showing my work around for a month, he found 2 galleries in Germany and 1 in France interested. So sometime in the next year, I will (hopefully!!!) be going to Europe for some art shows! My husband, after the big congratulations, put what we were both thinking right out there: "Can't you just decided what career you want to do?" My response? "But I am all of these careers. I am an artist, a therapist, a designer. And I will do all of it." And I will be awesome.
But damn, does that ton of bricks make your head spin when they first hit.
Okay, so that's my life outside of school right now. Bit complicated. But you know what? I kinda like it. It's better than being suck in a cubical all day, every day unhappily going along until the day you die. Or worse. Telling yourself you are happy when you really aren't because you are doing what you said you would be happy doing.
So I say change yourself, make something different. We almost never end up the way we thought we would. In almost any regard. But above all else, be happy.
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